Just a quick tag onto yesterday’s verbose post. I want to clarify a couple of things. First, the views expressed in yesterday’s post are personal to me and do not reflect the views of Crossroads Metaphysical Store or Eric Rasbold. Just me.
I am not at risk or even in an intense depression. It is more of a slap of reality that I am trying to reconcile that happens when a person’s (previous) world view is proved to be either incorrect or unhealthy. In my case, it was both and the congnitive dissonance of requires a massive rearranging of the mental furniture. That feeling of a sudden awareness of what feels like danger all around you is pretty stunning, let me tell you. Also, for Virgo Me, who needs everything to follow some kind of sequencing and make some kind of sense, a lot of what is going on in the macrocosim of the world and in the microcosim of my life very suddenly and abruptly failed to make any sense at all to me (and still doesn’t), so I’m working on making necessary adjustments.
This year’s trauma’s identified for me a lot of places where my energy is wasted and I am actively working to shore up the leaks and improve the flow. This has taught me that I cannot allow myself to think in certain ways or everything starts to unravel in an unhealthy, non-productive way and that I need to be more in control of where my random or even focused thoughts lead me.
Today, I unsubscribed from the political commentary content creators that I follow. I like them and I admire than and I will miss them, but I need to let that go. I have been ardently watching the most inane bullshit on YouTube so that my metrics will change. I am studying other triggers in my life that do not support good mental health and that could be contributing factors to my breakdown so that I can rebuild in a healthier way.
Thank you to everyone who reached out showing support. Yesterday, I was not OK. Today I am OK, but very clearly still a work in progress. Usually, I can feel the redirects and potential mental and emotional upheavals coming before they hit me and this one caught me unawares.
Be well, all of you. Do what you need to do to take care of yourself and live your best life. There is so very many more things in heaven and earth than are dreamt of in our philosophy as humans. Of that, at least, I am certain.
“A person is smart. People are dumb, panicky, dangerous animals and you know it."
Meanwhile, here is a beautiful photo my son, Nathan, snapped on Saturday evening in my side yard.
Thank you for the kind gift, Ma’am. I read this and the preceding post earlier. I’m glad I can at least comment. Grateful for your work in the world 🙏🏾